In the Cave

I've come here to hide, for I am ashamed.
Even saying "I" feels like an insult.
You know everything. There is no hiding from You.
Addiction is an idolatry of self, worshipping lies.
It is not who I am, for You have made me for Your purpose.
Remind me of Your truth, Lord! Break these chains!
I give up. Time to stop running like Job.
Time to stop cave-dwelling like David.
Time to reveal my nakedness so You may clothe me in robes.
You are my strength and Savior, my anchor and rock.
Tear down the strongholds and expose the strong man.
Lead me to repentance for Your Name's sake.
Save me from these brambles, for I have gone astray.
I am helpless, and this state is just where You need me to be.
Jesus, You are my Shepherd. Restore me, revive me, receive me.
My prayers rise up like the moans of a lost soul.
My body wastes away, my neck becomes thin, my eyes grow large,
Waiting for you.
You will come, am probably already here.

You whisper "I've always been with you, closer than your heartbeat.
Now, just let go and hold on."

This is love.